Rock Lee (ロック・リー) [via Cager] (
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Characters: Rock Lee and YOU!! ♥
Location: Shibusen City Park
Rating: G to ?? (depends on the language of who stops by)
Time: mid-afternoon, April 17th
Description: Lee is still down from Gai-sensei and others disappearing earlier in the month. He needs some cheering up, or maybe just someone to distract him.
Lee sat on a park bench with his communicator in his hand. He wasn't looking at the device but rather out over the large park where some happy owners were playing with their dogs. Even then, Lee's gaze wasn't on anyone in particular. His round, dark, orb-like eyes remained fixed and mostly unblinking.
For a teenager who was often full of energy and shouting proclamations of youth, he looked rather somber. The fresh breath of spring was in the air, but for Rock Lee it was hardly a day to celebrate. With his sensei gone, along with Kakashi, several of his friends before them, and now even Temeraire, Lee just felt listless.
Location: Shibusen City Park
Rating: G to ?? (depends on the language of who stops by)
Time: mid-afternoon, April 17th
Description: Lee is still down from Gai-sensei and others disappearing earlier in the month. He needs some cheering up, or maybe just someone to distract him.
Lee sat on a park bench with his communicator in his hand. He wasn't looking at the device but rather out over the large park where some happy owners were playing with their dogs. Even then, Lee's gaze wasn't on anyone in particular. His round, dark, orb-like eyes remained fixed and mostly unblinking.
For a teenager who was often full of energy and shouting proclamations of youth, he looked rather somber. The fresh breath of spring was in the air, but for Rock Lee it was hardly a day to celebrate. With his sensei gone, along with Kakashi, several of his friends before them, and now even Temeraire, Lee just felt listless.
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His arms flailed in an attempt to express just how frustrated he was that this conversation was still so confusing. Even though he was doing his best to be frank. Rubbing at his face, Lee attempted again to get his feelings across. He tried to not let his voice raise too high, but he could only do so much. "I know you do not find me attractive! The point is that... I am just..."
Taking a deep breath, he worked to bring down his temper. He wasn't make any sense. His shouldered slumped. Lee had not felt this pathetic in a long time. Shaking his head, he tried one more time.
"I know I am not attractive. In anyone's eyes here or back home." He drew a little further inward, feeling vulnerable. "And it is childish to feel this way, but it hurts to be reminded."
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"Then you're saying that although you knew beforehand, the reminder upsets you," he parsed out eventually, taking Lee's words and simply rearranging them. "But if it was just a simple matter of your.. self-consciousness, Lee, this wouldn't be an issue and you never would've bothered broaching the subject, much less make an issue out of it. You're trained better than that. Which means that isn't the underlying reason for this conversation. So what is your issue with me, in regards to what happened then, Lee?"
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Lee was conflicted. He wanted to pull away from Neji and just go home, but with his wrist so strongly held he felt compelled to stay and figure this out. Neji was trying, too. Lee sighed. "I do not know..."
There was one thing he could think of that might still be weighing on his mind. Warmth rushing to his face, Lee bit his bottom lip. This was so embarrassing. "M-maybe I am just... That time..." He swallowed. "... It was my... my first... k-kiss."
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It didn't quite rank as Neji's own first (although it was close), but he'd never put much stock into the sentimentality behind it like Lee might have, and so thought little of it.
"..Sorry," he said after a minute, sighing with a shake of his head. "If it makes you feel better, it shouldn't 'count' if it wasn't meaningful. I'm sure you'll have your chance with someone else soon enough."
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No one was climbing over themselves to give him romantic attention, let alone a kiss.
But enough moping. Lee gave Neji a half smile. "I appreciate the apology, Neji. Thank you."
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"You're not.. unattractive, Lee," he said haltingly, frowning as he wasn't certain what he had planned to follow that up with. "And worrying about it isn't like you. It may sound ridiculous, but having someone that is interested in you because of the way you look isn't actually flattering. That's why I know when you find someone, it'll be a person that truly sees and appreciates you."
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"I think Gai-sensei being gone has me very knotted on the inside," Lee confessed. He felt so lost without that constant source of support. But he had Neji still, and Tenten, too. "... Maybe that is all that is really wrong."
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"Then get some rest, Lee," he settled on at length. "We'll pick up on our resonance again tomorrow morning."
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"Alright. I will see you in the morning, then." And before he could stop himself or let Neji stop him, Lee stepped close and threw his arms around his teammate. "... Thank you for talking with me, Neji."
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"Of course, Lee," he murmured quietly, never taking his eyes off the streets.
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"I hope the rest of your shift goes well, Neji."
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Tucked away in the shadows thrown off of adjacent rooftops, he prepared to keep watch for what would surely be a long night.