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Characters: Yamazaki Sagaru and whoever wants to ~~beat~~ talk with him

Location: Somewhere in DC. He doesn't know either.

Rating: PG-13 cause you can never tell for sure.

Time: March 31st all day

Description: Yamazaki wants to discover the city with a map, but the map is not too helpful.

Here comes the guy, wearing a pair of black jeans and a t-shirt with the picture of a waving alien on it and he's staring at a map which he holds in his hand. He looks distracted and lost. Do with him what you please.

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He started when he was still in high school. And he made the world a worse place. There was crime there, of course. Every world has it. I've got no reason to believe it was anything other than average for a modern society. That's why I say he's immature. He thought he could force people to be good. He thought killing every criminal he heard of would mean a world without crime. But all it means is a world where everyone's afraid.

Imagine that you're falsely accused of a crime. In my world, if your name and face appeared in a news report about it, you could die at any moment. No trial, no chance to defend yourself, no evidence needed for Kira except the accusation.

And when someone I care about tried to stop him, the bastard killed him. He's the reason I'm dead, too.

I see, so this Kira was a silly child who basically want to do something good first and killed criminals, but later, as he grew up his personality went twisted and he used that notebook without thinking and he killed everyone he wanted to, even if their only crime was to try to stop him...Poor guy. I guess an acupuncture expert could have been help him to recover.

[Yes, Yamazaki feels sorry for children who make stupid things because they aren't brought up the way they should.]

But...did he killed someone you liked? I'm sorry for your loss. I...I hope you'll find someone to care about again.

[Mello chuckles briefly at the 'acupuncture' comment.]

He was twisted to begin with. The notebook just fed his delusions of grandeur. A normal person who discovered it really was what it said would be terrified, and they'd be right to be.

[Mello's one of the few people he can think of who actually would've put it to use, if he'd been the one to find it. But that's different.]

The person he killed is here.

[He's still paranoid enough that he won't reveal that the person's the same as the great detective he's already mentioned.]

Which is one reason I can't completely hate BREW.

In the world I came from everyone is twisted. But they're not serial killers. Not all of them. Most of them are just idiots, like me.

[He's kind of desperate when he realizes he's trying to explain his world for someone who knows such splendid words like 'grandeur' or 'delusion'. On top of it he uses the as conveniently as they were chopsticks.]

What...You...Do you hate BREW? No, you must not hate him! You'll make him angry, he'll send you back to that world where you're dead! You'd lose everything you got back out of BREW's mercy!

[And Yamazaki would use someone he...

...

...is a buddy with.]

Relax, I don't hate BREW.

[What an odd guy Zaki is. But, given the time he comes from, Mello can understand regarding whatever mix of technology and magic BREW is with awe; he's guilty of attributing emotions and intent to it himself.]

But I don't think it was mercy that brought me here. BREW decided, based on some criteria I can guess, and some I haven't figured out yet, that I'd be useful in the war. I'd like to know what benefit it sees to sending people away, and to bringing some of them back without their memories of Death City. It's hard to see how that accomplishes anything except fucking people over.

Yes, it is, but that's why we'll go to the library, to find out how it works and why does he...it do what it does. But there can be a very good reason for sending away people then bringing them back without their memories. You're not good at understanding emotions, are you? So...do you want too know what I think of it?

What? I'm really good at understanding emotions.

[He's slightly offended at the suggestion otherwise. Near's the robot, Mello's the one who feels. That's how it's always been.]

BREW brings someone in, lets them get attached to people here and vice versa, then switches them out for someone who doesn't remember any of it. How the fuck is there a good reason for that? All it does is make people's friends not even know who they are.

Yes, yes, you are, you just...[Yamazaki's just confused and doesn't get what's happening to him. Why is is so important to him to be on good terms with this Mello guy?]

Maybe being attached to people turns to someone BREW can't use for its aim anymore. There can be friendships and other relationships more important than fight for a city you hardly know. Like that friend of yours who was killed by Kira...What if you could be more useful if he wasn't here?

[Mello doesn't stop walking, but a stillness overtakes him all the same.

He hasn't thought about it that way until now, having always assumed BREW deliberately brought in people with connections to those already here, to give the more sentimental among them something to fight for.

He hasn't thought of it, but he should have, and he gives Zaki a keen look tinged with surprise that the kid thought of something Mello didn't.]

You're right. It can be a distraction. But that's more subtlety than I've given BREW credit for.

[Yamazaki does notice that he did said something with he gained some moment of respect of the blonde. It's such a good feeling, just like being beaten up very badly by his Vice-Commander or the Captain of the first squad. But now Mello wants him to think more and being smart again...Do these geniuses have any idea about how hard to be smart?]

What if you just found the proof of the existence of a god?

[Mello gives Zaki a skeptical look, one eyebrow quirked, that's not without humor.]

I still say BREW's not a god. Technology, or magic, far beyond what either of our worlds have, sure. But it's a tool that was created by someone, and as much as it seems like it thinks for itself, I'm not positive it does.

[Mello gets a delighted blink from Zaki, just like he'd say: "Yeah, let's have a fierce and hot argument!"

But why would anyone create such a whimsical machine when the existence of the world he lives in is on the stake?

[This is why Mello likes Zaki. There aren't many people who'll debate theories like this, and even fewer who actually seem to enjoy it.]

One person created a lot of demon tools, and it's hard to find out about him. I assume a big reason he made them was just because he could. I doubt he anticipated BREW being used like this--and it's less being used than that it flipped itself on.

Did you notice you're talking of a machine which flipped itself on? What kind of machine do something like that? Machines must be turned on by humans or pets, they do it accidentally, though...

[Zaki lets himself lose in his thoughts for a moment before he takes a kind of scared look at Mello.]

You don't want to say that BREW is just a malfunctioning machine, do you? It's...

Blasphemy? [Mello asks, with half a sly grin.]

Death the Kid activated BREW accidentally. Technically, I suppose it was on ever since it was created.

And what if I do say it's malfunctioning? It's not going to send me home for insulting it. I can't hurt its feelings; it hasn't got any.

If blasphemy means badmouthing of a god then yes, it is.

[For some reason Yamazaki feels he's mocked by Mello.]

Would you bet on this? Would you risk your staying with saying that BREW is just a lame, broken machine?

[Yamazaki could never do something so brave and reckless thing like that! Mello's really on a different level if he's not afraid of calling out a...god?]

What I say about BREW doesn't have a thing to do with whether or not I stay here. But even if it did, I'd still say it.

[He sounds almost indignant at the idea he could be intimidated into silence by something that would fit in the palm of his hand.]

You shouldn't be afraid of it, either.

Why?

[No, this is not what he meant to ask.]

Why do you think the world is against you, Mello? Just because some people and some notebooks and some buildings hurt you in the past, it doesn't mean that everyone and everything exists only to torment you.

I never said anything about people hurting me.

[He realizes as he says it that this instinctive denial is wrong; he did say people he cared about died.]

All right, maybe I did. But I don't think the whole world's out to get me. It's not like I sit around being fucking miserable all the time.

[Does he seem like that? He'd be genuinely shocked if that were the case.]

[No, actually Mello does not look like someone with bruised soul, but Yamazaki kind of wished for it. If Mello was like that he had a reason to comfort him. But since Mello is Mello, he has not a single little reason to do so.]

No, you...you're just very different from everyone I've known. And it's...a bit frightening.

[Yamazaki looks at the map and wonders if he ever find the way back to CasCom.]

Mello, I'm really glad we've met but you know I'm a bit busy with being lost and I kind of try to find my way home, so if you don't want to join me in hunting for the Casualty Communal, then...

[He nods reluctantly like saying a "Good bye!"]

[Why the hell would it be frightening?

Yamazaki definitely has the ability to confuse Mello more than just about anyone else he's ever met. But he takes it as a compliment that the kid doesn't know anyone like him.

He leans in to look at the map, and taps Casualty Communal's approximate location.]

There.

[Hopefully Mello will never ever ask Yamazaki why he thought that their meeting was frightening. He couldn't tell, and if he can, he wouldn't want to. He steps back as Mello leans closer and uses the map as a shield between himself and Mello.]

Thank...thank you. Take care.

[All right...]

You too.

[He wouldn't normally say that, but the silence feels awkward. Mello turns to go, since Yamazaki clearly seems to want to get away. What an odd guy.]

Wait!!!

[Yamazaki just doesn't want to end this conversation like this. He doesn't understand himself, either, but he grabs Mello's wrist and forces him to turn back. He looks into those dark eyes, and for a moment he feels the words struggling in his throat to come out before he could tell what he wanted to.]

I don't want you to leave. I don't want to leave me ever. I...I'd like to infiltrate the library with you, I'd like to protect you from that dangerous guy who had that notebook, I'd like...to know you more. I'd like if you liked to know me by your side. But I don't think you want this, too. And that's why we can't meet again.

[He's almost crying as he turns away and leaves Mello behind.]

I won't look for you again. But I can't tell you not to look for me if you want to.

[And with this the most confused guy in the town runs away.]

[What the fuck just happened?

For all that Mello's made his share of impassioned speeches, he's still at a loss when it comes to other people's emotional outbursts. Especially ones as confused as this, with Zaki saying he doesn't want Mello to leave, then doing just that himself. He either doesn't know what he wants, or doesn't think he should want it, a concept Mello would claim is completely foreign to him.

(And it sounded a lot like what he wants is Mello, but as long Mello doesn't have to do anything about it, he doesn't particularly care.)]

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Ha, luckily (?) for him, he died before it came out

LOL, death was a bliss for him, then!

XD

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Thank you for making me use the dictionary so often! I must learn new words XD

I was an English major, I can't help it! XD

But I didn't complain, I liked it :P

OK then! :D

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Alright, this is my Christmas gift to myself!!!

Oh Zaki, why so cute?