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Numerous threads of fate entwined, bringing us here
Characters:: Neji, Auron
Location:: Auron's apartment
Rating: PG-13; alcohol, mentions of death and violence
Time: August 27th, early evening
Description: Two dead men have a talk about death.
It took him a few days to decide on a proper gift for Auron. He knew he had to get him something however, because Auron had done a lot for him in the past week. Letting him barge into his place and bleed over his couch, not to mention taking charge of the Watch while he recovered.. But the older man didn't seem to have much in way of hobbies, though he did know that his second was partial to alcohol.
With nothing else to go on, Neji wound up buying a few bottles of beer and making his way to Auron's apartment- this time without needing to be carried. He knocked shortly and waited, hoped Auron wouldn't mind the brief visit after everything he'd put him through. He'd leave the gift as he had for Kakashi's team, but didn't quite trust Auron's neighbors..
Location:: Auron's apartment
Rating: PG-13; alcohol, mentions of death and violence
Time: August 27th, early evening
Description: Two dead men have a talk about death.
It took him a few days to decide on a proper gift for Auron. He knew he had to get him something however, because Auron had done a lot for him in the past week. Letting him barge into his place and bleed over his couch, not to mention taking charge of the Watch while he recovered.. But the older man didn't seem to have much in way of hobbies, though he did know that his second was partial to alcohol.
With nothing else to go on, Neji wound up buying a few bottles of beer and making his way to Auron's apartment- this time without needing to be carried. He knocked shortly and waited, hoped Auron wouldn't mind the brief visit after everything he'd put him through. He'd leave the gift as he had for Kakashi's team, but didn't quite trust Auron's neighbors..
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He didn't know how long ago it had been for Auron, but it was clear ir still plagued the older man, as he expected it might.
"I see.. That must have been difficult for all of you."
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Auron's throat closed up. How he possibly tell anyone about what happened? Being the only thing between Braska and Sin and the hordes of Sin Scales that wanted him dead? Of calling Jecht, the Final Aeon, and watching a monster render and tear at a larger monster. The victory of Sin's defeat as Jecht devoured him and Braska's body rebelled at the last. Fayth, he was screaming and there was pain and Braska didn't have any EYES any longer and Auron had to hold him down to stay with him until he was no more.
He couldn't say any of those things. He never could. It might have shown on his face. Just a terrible strain that looked like he should be screaming but the past choked off all sound.
Without a word, Auron took one of the beers and drained it dry before he started again. "Things continued. Everyone was happy because Sin had been defeated. Maybe this time it would work. But...I couldn't be satisfied. Not with what happened. So by myself I went back to the fayth that had engineered this transfer of power. I thought, maybe if she would talk to me, I could make some sense of my life and promise my friends that I'd watch over their kids. Except...that's not what happened."
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Auron lost his friends, a large part of himself, and the world moved on, benefiting from sacrifices most likely didn't understand the true nature of. And that there was more to this than all of that..
"What happened?" he inquired gently after a lengthy pause. More of a prompt to continue than real curiosity. Auron needed this more than he had.
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He slipped off the shades, showing fully the right eye blinded by injury. "I had to listen to this fayth tell me these things. That the friends I had were lost for nothing. At that point, I was a healthy whole man. So. If you'd been told that your friends gave up their lives for no reason, what would you do?"
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And Auron had given up his two best friends for it. Neji looked over the man's blind eye without surprise, having already seen more than he wanted with his own.
"I'd do everything to combat such a system," he said calmly - too calmly. The battles were carved into Auron's skin. "And work to expose the truth with every fiber of my being."
It took a certain amount of determination, stupidity, and insanity to go up against power far greater than your own. He knew, because for ten years he'd waged such a war against his own clan. And for the deaths of two close friends to be meaningless.. well, that would certainly provoke such reckless abandon.
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This part of the story came a little easier since it was just what had happened to him. He paused to eat and drink. "When I came to, I'd been wounded badly. Alone, I went back down the long, long way back." He still couldn't quite remember HOW he'd climbed down Mount Gagazet but he'd had nightmares for years.
"I met people who were willing to bind my wounds enough and give me a ride back to Braska's city. I managed to find someone trustworthy to give my promise to take Braska's daughter, Yuna, to an island far away from any politics. And then..."
He trailed off and folded his hands in his lap. He looked up, staring at Neji with one eye. "If I tell you this next part, you can never tell anyone else. As long as you live here. Can I trust you to keep this safe forever?"
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But Neji sat up a little more at the mention of Yuna. He'd known they were from the same world, but not her lineage. So she had been Braska's daughter, and Auron for some reason, gave her care over to someone else. She must have been young.
And now they came to this, a binding secret. But he's a shinobi, and a clan member with a valuable bloodline at that. He knew how to keep secrets and bury them so far down that not even blood or pain could release them.
"I promise," he said solemnly. "I'll bury it alongside the secrets of these eyes."
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"When a person dies normally, the pyreflies drift over the body for a while and then go seek the Farplane. It's an actual place inside Spira and the pyreflies of the dead are there. If there's too much anger and resentment at death, the pyreflies of the dead form into creatures of danger. We call them fiends. Because of how Sin roams the Spira, so fiends cover Spira. A summoner can pacify the recently deceased and prevent them from becoming fiends."
Now he was coming to it. The one thing he'd never said to anyone but Tidus. Oh, of course his party found out about it, but he never told them. "There's a third option. One that normally sane people don't do because it goes beyond...so many things. Outside Braska's city, where no one could see, I...succumbed to my fatal wounds. At the...moment of death, I felt so cheated of everything and I knew that nothing would get changed if I couldn't have revenge. I couldn't change anything. So. I faded away but because I wanted to stay so badly...I did.
"People...people have names for that here. I've heard a few of them and they aren't kind. Revenant. Zombie. Undead. I became an Unsent. A dead man walking, only instead of being young, what I looked like now was a reflection of my soul. An old man. You can't tell if anyone is Unsent by looking at them. So now I could stay in Spira as long as I stayed true to my promises of revenge, to fix the world and to take care of Jecht's son."
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A bit like the resurrected faces in their world, though it hadn't been their own wills that brought them back or guided them.
Neji looked over Auron, taking in the aged and worn appearance with new context. Little wonder why he'd asked him about the circumstances surrounding his death. He'd been there and suffered- still did to a degree.
"Did your world ever change before you came here?"
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"Until I ended up here. Alive." Auron snorted. "BREW has a sense of humor. When Yuna was here, she told me things were starting to change so I guess I did some good after all. Still...I wish my friends were here."
He sighed. Some part of him was always still -there- in that terrible moment of loss and always would be. He would deal with it as he'd always done. Alone. On his own. Until finally death came for him.
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But the yearning for his friends he'd fought so hard for was a loss even so. Inevitably, there were things they'd miss and people they'd never see again.
"It's not impossible," he reminded him and for the first time, wondered how old Auron really was. "But in the meantime, we're left in a strange position, no longer belonging to any world."
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"I'm used to that feeling. It's normal but don't let it consume you. Let go the land you came from and trust that the people you left behind won't screw it up too much. So it leaves you of what to do here. Far as I'm concerned, keep doing what you're doing. You have a job, friends and a life here."
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But he didn't think he'd ever let go of Konoha completely, too many memories of those trees and streets he knew intuitively. But Death City was his home now, and he did have faith in those he'd left his world to. Naruto, Hinata, Tenten, Lee.. would all carry his will forward.
"Yes," he agreed mildly. "There's still plenty of work to do."
And so long as there was work to be done, he'd spend far less time plagued by troubling thoughts. "I just hope Shibusen doesn't send all of us back to our deaths after everything."
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It was difficult not to worry about it, but he'd work to keep from dwelling on the uncertainty that would always linger. Not to mention the inevitability of dying a second time even if they did stay. But here he had a future, which was more than he had in his own world.
"In any case, I'm free now," he said softly, reflective. "My seal is gone, and I'll be sure to enjoy it for as long as I'm able."
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"Without the seal, what does it feel like?" Auron asked. "I don't have any special powers. Unless you count using a sword."