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Hyuuga Neji ([personal profile] heavenly_earth) wrote in [community profile] soul_logs2014-03-30 06:08 pm
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Numerous threads of fate entwined, bringing us here

Characters:: Neji, Auron
Location:: Auron's apartment
Rating: PG-13; alcohol, mentions of death and violence
Time: August 27th, early evening
Description: Two dead men have a talk about death.



It took him a few days to decide on a proper gift for Auron. He knew he had to get him something however, because Auron had done a lot for him in the past week. Letting him barge into his place and bleed over his couch, not to mention taking charge of the Watch while he recovered.. But the older man didn't seem to have much in way of hobbies, though he did know that his second was partial to alcohol.

With nothing else to go on, Neji wound up buying a few bottles of beer and making his way to Auron's apartment- this time without needing to be carried. He knocked shortly and waited, hoped Auron wouldn't mind the brief visit after everything he'd put him through. He'd leave the gift as he had for Kakashi's team, but didn't quite trust Auron's neighbors..
nofarplaneyet: (pensive)

[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-05 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yes. It was..."

Auron's throat closed up. How he possibly tell anyone about what happened? Being the only thing between Braska and Sin and the hordes of Sin Scales that wanted him dead? Of calling Jecht, the Final Aeon, and watching a monster render and tear at a larger monster. The victory of Sin's defeat as Jecht devoured him and Braska's body rebelled at the last. Fayth, he was screaming and there was pain and Braska didn't have any EYES any longer and Auron had to hold him down to stay with him until he was no more.

He couldn't say any of those things. He never could. It might have shown on his face. Just a terrible strain that looked like he should be screaming but the past choked off all sound.

Without a word, Auron took one of the beers and drained it dry before he started again. "Things continued. Everyone was happy because Sin had been defeated. Maybe this time it would work. But...I couldn't be satisfied. Not with what happened. So by myself I went back to the fayth that had engineered this transfer of power. I thought, maybe if she would talk to me, I could make some sense of my life and promise my friends that I'd watch over their kids. Except...that's not what happened."
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
"I found out the truth. Sin was designed to never die. Anyone who became to Final Aeon and managed to defeat Sin in turn -became- Sin in its place, to keep the cycle going again. It was an ultimate tool of control so that all of Spira could be flattened down by the Church." Auron's tone became laced with bitterness. "They kept up everything with the pilgrimages because if you have pure drudgery, no one would want to live. But if you have a story of hope and have thousands and thousands of people give their lives for it, maybe someday if you just pray -hard- enough, things will be different."

He slipped off the shades, showing fully the right eye blinded by injury. "I had to listen to this fayth tell me these things. That the friends I had were lost for nothing. At that point, I was a healthy whole man. So. If you'd been told that your friends gave up their lives for no reason, what would you do?"
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
"A good answer. It's what I eventually remembered to do. But the first thing I did was a lost my temper and attacked the fayth. Which is like attacking a hurricane with your bare hands."

This part of the story came a little easier since it was just what had happened to him. He paused to eat and drink. "When I came to, I'd been wounded badly. Alone, I went back down the long, long way back." He still couldn't quite remember HOW he'd climbed down Mount Gagazet but he'd had nightmares for years.

"I met people who were willing to bind my wounds enough and give me a ride back to Braska's city. I managed to find someone trustworthy to give my promise to take Braska's daughter, Yuna, to an island far away from any politics. And then..."

He trailed off and folded his hands in his lap. He looked up, staring at Neji with one eye. "If I tell you this next part, you can never tell anyone else. As long as you live here. Can I trust you to keep this safe forever?"
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
Auron let out a nervous breath and drank the rest of his beer. "It's this. In Spira, in addition to being able to summon aeons, Summoners also have a charge to pacify the dead. When anything dies in Spira, it gives off these...lights. They're tiny and they float around. The nearest equivalent on this world are called fireflies but they're not really that close. We call them pyreflies.

"When a person dies normally, the pyreflies drift over the body for a while and then go seek the Farplane. It's an actual place inside Spira and the pyreflies of the dead are there. If there's too much anger and resentment at death, the pyreflies of the dead form into creatures of danger. We call them fiends. Because of how Sin roams the Spira, so fiends cover Spira. A summoner can pacify the recently deceased and prevent them from becoming fiends."

Now he was coming to it. The one thing he'd never said to anyone but Tidus. Oh, of course his party found out about it, but he never told them. "There's a third option. One that normally sane people don't do because it goes beyond...so many things. Outside Braska's city, where no one could see, I...succumbed to my fatal wounds. At the...moment of death, I felt so cheated of everything and I knew that nothing would get changed if I couldn't have revenge. I couldn't change anything. So. I faded away but because I wanted to stay so badly...I did.

"People...people have names for that here. I've heard a few of them and they aren't kind. Revenant. Zombie. Undead. I became an Unsent. A dead man walking, only instead of being young, what I looked like now was a reflection of my soul. An old man. You can't tell if anyone is Unsent by looking at them. So now I could stay in Spira as long as I stayed true to my promises of revenge, to fix the world and to take care of Jecht's son."
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
"I had to watch over Jecht's son, Tidus, until he became old enough. Jecht was still...aware inside Sin and we could talk to each other when he came around. We figured out a plan but Tidus made it happen." A glow of pride filled Auron's voice. "Ten years and more I stuck around and with the next pilgrimage, led by Yuna, I let them find out the truth in their own experiences. Jecht was freed from Sin and could be free to go to the Farplane. As was I.

"Until I ended up here. Alive." Auron snorted. "BREW has a sense of humor. When Yuna was here, she told me things were starting to change so I guess I did some good after all. Still...I wish my friends were here."

He sighed. Some part of him was always still -there- in that terrible moment of loss and always would be. He would deal with it as he'd always done. Alone. On his own. Until finally death came for him.
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Which brings me back to my original point of wanting to help you." There, with a goal and a focus, Auron could easily stuff all of his pain somewhere deep. It's what he'd been forced to do, to become someone so unbelievably hard in order to do what had to be done.

"I'm used to that feeling. It's normal but don't let it consume you. Let go the land you came from and trust that the people you left behind won't screw it up too much. So it leaves you of what to do here. Far as I'm concerned, keep doing what you're doing. You have a job, friends and a life here."
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-06 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
"That's not up to us, Neji. Hearing how people get returned right where they came from, seems like, means the same for us." Auron, of course, had had far more time to accept this simple fact for being Unsent for so long. "If we win the war, we might get to stay or we might have to leave. Dwelling about it will keep you up at night. Accept the fact that every day you get now is a gift and it's going to get taken away from you eventually. For now, live."
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[personal profile] nofarplaneyet 2014-04-09 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
It was a sobering bit of reality, but Auron was an expert at providing that. The sooner Neji realized what he was in for, the easier it would be.
"Without the seal, what does it feel like?" Auron asked. "I don't have any special powers. Unless you count using a sword."