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soul_logs2013-08-05 03:09 am
everylastone) wrote in soul_logs2013-08-05 03:09 am
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[Open] Let's try this again
Characters: Eren and Open
Location: Casualty Communal, basement
Rating: PG-13
Time: June 20th
Description: Turning into a hungry titan is something to chew on, and Eren isn’t sure he’s ready to stomach it yet. Locking himself into the basement feels oddly consoling, although sitting still doesn’t comes there easily either.
It had been a couple of days since they had beendragged back forcefully recovered from that mission that had gone wrong. Even though all of Eren’s wounds had already healed – literally all of them, when his titan powers returned that had included his abnormal healing rate which had taken care of not only his mangled limbs and malnourishment, but even of the small surgery they had had to do on his neck as well – the teen still didn’t feel any better about what had happened.
In fact, thinking of it made him feel pretty sick.
He had turned into a titan and lost control again. Worse, he had not only been attempting to hurt people and left damage on the village that was hard to overlook, but he had been hungry enough to attempt catching and eating other living beings as well. And in at least one case, he had also succeeded…
The memory had Eren press a hand against his mouth in order to resist the urge to hurl as he kept steadily climbing down the stairs with a fixed goal in his mind. Nobody had come to take him down, as should have happened. He knew he should have felt grateful for that, but he wasn’t. Instead it felt as if an important promise had been ignored, even though he still didn’t want to die.
No, he couldn’t die. Not as long as even one of the titans was still left alive!
…even if that meant that he’d have to end up killing himself too at some point. Finally reaching the bottom of the steps, Eren fumbled for the keys that he had gotten himself for one of the rooms within the basement. Locking himself up there was no solution, but he felt that he would feel better if he could use a semi-familiar environment while he attempted to sort his thoughts on the matter of his titan-mess. It hadn’t helped within the last couple of days, but who knew, maybe today-
The key slipped from between his fingers and landed with a clatter on the ground rather than to undo the lock as intended. Muttering a low “Oh, come on now” under his breath, Eren crouched down to retrieve it. Maybe he should have thought to switch on the light after all.
Location: Casualty Communal, basement
Rating: PG-13
Time: June 20th
Description: Turning into a hungry titan is something to chew on, and Eren isn’t sure he’s ready to stomach it yet. Locking himself into the basement feels oddly consoling, although sitting still doesn’t comes there easily either.
It had been a couple of days since they had been
In fact, thinking of it made him feel pretty sick.
He had turned into a titan and lost control again. Worse, he had not only been attempting to hurt people and left damage on the village that was hard to overlook, but he had been hungry enough to attempt catching and eating other living beings as well. And in at least one case, he had also succeeded…
The memory had Eren press a hand against his mouth in order to resist the urge to hurl as he kept steadily climbing down the stairs with a fixed goal in his mind. Nobody had come to take him down, as should have happened. He knew he should have felt grateful for that, but he wasn’t. Instead it felt as if an important promise had been ignored, even though he still didn’t want to die.
No, he couldn’t die. Not as long as even one of the titans was still left alive!
…even if that meant that he’d have to end up killing himself too at some point. Finally reaching the bottom of the steps, Eren fumbled for the keys that he had gotten himself for one of the rooms within the basement. Locking himself up there was no solution, but he felt that he would feel better if he could use a semi-familiar environment while he attempted to sort his thoughts on the matter of his titan-mess. It hadn’t helped within the last couple of days, but who knew, maybe today-
The key slipped from between his fingers and landed with a clatter on the ground rather than to undo the lock as intended. Muttering a low “Oh, come on now” under his breath, Eren crouched down to retrieve it. Maybe he should have thought to switch on the light after all.
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"No, you're right. It really isn't." Not even guessing the deep dark thoughts the other teen was having he flashed him an expression that was full of heartfelt conviction and confidence. "But we're going to make it one again. No matter how hard and long the struggle, bit by bit, we'll take this world back and make it ours again."
"That's what I believe- no, what I'm sure of." It didn't matter how much he was put through or if anybody acknowledged it or not. It wasn't as if he was the only one who had to shoulder a burden nor that anybody was trying to ignore it out of malicious intent. They all carried and struggled the same. And even if he wasn't there to do his part they'd still keep on fighting and find a way. So it would never be for nothing. "My friends and comrades are still doing their best out there. That's why I'm going to do the same and return to them as soon as possible."