He drags in a deep breath and sits up a little, idly poking at one of the plates Sugata put on the table.

"I was pretty dependent on him towards the end. I remember he had to carry me into the apartment when we first moved in. I had nightmares that wouldn't go away unless I was with him. I felt lost unless he was near me. Even at the time, I think some part of me knew it wasn't the smartest idea, but I felt like I didn't have any other options. He was my rock. And I clung to him way too tightly, because I was terrified of being swept back out to sea."