[okay, the shoulder rub is actually sooth—WHY DI DYOU STOP WITH THE POSITIVE STUFF self despair is go.]

They already think this is a horrible situation—a situation that I brought down upon them!

[it starts.]

The least I could do was make them feel welcomed, but this? This!??! I should have checked here sooner, I should have just taken this area—I don't even remember who was supposed to cover it!!!

[none of what he says makes much sense anymore, really.]

I'm the worst! Father is surely disappointed in me right now—!!!